On a whim, I picked Howl. Possibly because I never mind spending an hour or so staring at James Franco. The film is sort of a biography of the poem and of Ginsberg and of the obscenity trial in 1957 that Ginsburg chose to ignore but won nonetheless. It's all a bit confusing, but that may have been the point: after all, as the trial transcript read, "One cannot translate poetry into prose." I think this may be a poem of a movie and as I often tell JJ, I simply don't understand poetry. I'm prosaic, what can I say.
Ginsberg has long been the main exception, but not the famous ones - not "Howl" or "Kaddish". My favorite poem longer than fourteen lines has always been Ginsberg's "America." I finally found the reading of it that's my favorite - it's an earlier version of the poem and varies in places than the final published text. Ginsberg's recitals of the final poem always sound dry, regretful, and serious. But in this recording Ginsberg sounds drunk and delighted - he's reading it in a club and the audience shouts back and laughs, because what this poem is about is pointing out the absurd for exactly what it is, and to recall that we can't take ourselves too seriously.
And I felt better for hearing that poem and drunken riotous laughter once more. So, to come to peace with Supernatural and fandom and that which shook me and put the fear into me but which should never control me, I'm posting something I wrote long ago (on October 12, 2010, as it says) but never took credit for. I thought of it and looked it over and yeah, I think it still works (or works as well as it ever did). My apologies to Allen Ginsberg once again, but his queer shoulder has been and remains one I can lay my head upon and find great comfort.
Anon Meme (With all apologies to Allen Ginsberg)
Anon meme I've given you all and now I'm nothing
Anon meme two hours and twenty-seven comments October 12, 2010
I can't stand my own wank.
Anon meme when will we end the shipping wars?
Go fuck yourself with your ass!bees porn.
I don't feel good so I'll post OT.
I won't write my fic till I'm on drink nine.
Anon meme when will Gabriel be angelic?
When will Dean take off his clothes?
When will Sam look at himself through the grave?
When will Cas be worthy of his million Misha wives?
Anon meme why are your BB posts full of tears?
Anon meme when will you send your feedback to the no-names?
I'm sick of Nonnie!A's demands.
When can Dean go into the supermarket and buy what he needs with his good looks?
Anon meme after all it is you and I who are perfect not the show runners.
Your references are too much for me.
You made me want Sam to be a saint.
There must be some other way to settle this argument.
LL is writing Inception fic I don't know if she'll come back it's sinister.
Are you being sinister or is this some form of practical joke?
I'm trying to come to the point.
We refuse to give up our obsession.
Anon meme stop pushing Sera knows what she's doing.
Anon meme Jensen is directing.
I haven't read spn_gossip for months, everyday somebody posts manips of the wedding pictures.
Anon meme I feel sentimental about the Harvelles.
Anon meme I used to ship Dean/Jo in season two and I'm not sorry.
I read the kink meme every chance I get.
I sit in my house for days and fap to weecest watersports and tentacles.
When I go to ONTD I get drunk and never get banned.
My mind is made up there's going to be trouble.
You should have seen me reading Chash.
My beta reader thinks I'm perfectly right.
I won't say Futile Pumpkins
I have spiritual marriages based on astral projections.
Anon meme I still haven't told you what you did to my f-list after they found out I posted here.
I'm addressing you.
Are you going to let our emotional life be run by TwoP?
I'm obsessed by TwoP.
I read the recap every week.
Barnes stares at me every time I watch Lazarus Rising.
I wave at Raoul when checking out entries at the Supernatural Wiki.
It's always telling me about the !girls. Sam!girls are serious. Dean!girls are serious. Everybody's serious but me.
It occurs to me that I am anon meme.
I am talking to myself again.
The haters are rising against me.
I haven't got a SMoF's chance.
I'd better consider my intellectual resources.
My intellectual resources consist of two Latin majors millions of genitals an unpublishable f-locked literature that goes 1400 miles an hour and twenty-five thousand ironic reCaptchas.
I say nothing about my kink-meme fills nor the millions of hours of graduate level course work that never turn into degrees because NaNoWriMo coincides with thesis deadlines.
I have trolled the works of _mournthewicked, kitty_alex is the next to go.
My ambition to be a BNF despite the fact that I'm anonymous.
Anon meme, how can I write a silly litany in your wanky mood?
I will continue like Chuck Shurley my OCs are as individual as his characters more so they're all different sexes.
Anon meme I will sell you plots $2500 apiece $500 down but only for charity.
Anon meme free Adam Milligan.
Anon meme point out blatant racism.
Anon meme Sassy & salt_burn_porn must not die.
Anon meme I am Balthazar.
Anon meme I have this fantastic idea for a J2 fusion fic where Jared's Buckaroo Banzai and Jensen's Polly Pretty, Misha can wear a cowboy outfit and we don't have to worry about realism because they're all canon!sues everybody can be perfect and sentimental and the boys will switch who's on top you have no idea what a good thing this could be and Chad won't even be a douche. Everyone will be out of character.
Anon meme you don't really want to quit the fandom.
Anon meme it's those shoddy writers.
Those shoddy writers and the evil executives at the CW. And them writers.
Those writers don't understand Dean. Those writers are hacks. Kripke worships Neil Gaiman but can't even steal his ideas correctly.
They want to make Sam an asshole. They won't acknowledge the sexual tension. They tease us about Wincest and angelic consent issues and then they sink our ships.
That no good. Ugh. They kill all the women. They make all minorities villains. Hah. They make us fill in all of their plot holes. Help.
Anon meme this is quite serious.
Anon meme this is the impression I get from looking at the meta on the internet.
Anon meme is this correct?
I'd better get right down to the job.
It's true I don't want to focus on my real life or try to write original fiction, I'm just not inspired and psychopathic anyway.
Anon meme I'm putting my kinky shoulder to the wheel.
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