ETA: I don't think I'm leaving the fandom. I still do love this show. But I still feel... really, really hurt. I may not be as squee happy about it for awhile. And I'm really disappointed in the entire production crew for not thinking about any of these issues before they brought the episode to air.
ETA2: It's been brought to my attention that there was an outright statement that the relationship was never consummated during the episode - however, this occurred during the scene that hit my single trigger -- involuntary chemical-induced memory loss -- and so I missed the line while I was retrieving my anti-anxiety meds. Nonetheless, my overall feelings about the episode and the writers' complete incomprehension of the horror that they wrought still stands. Intercourse or no, the emotional and mental manipulation remains reprehensible and unfunny.
Re: Supernatural s07e08 "Season Seven: Time For a Wedding" Written by Andrew Dabb and Daniel Lofflin. Directed by Tim Andrew.
I've been a loyal fan of this show for years. It's the only show I still watch on broadcast television because I've wanted to help keep its ratings up. When I was selected as a Nielsen's rater this past spring, I made sure that I invited ten viewers to my home to watch the Supernatural finale to help support it.
I don't know if I can watch it again.
I watched tonight's episode in its entirety because I kept hoping that it would redeem itself at any point. It didn't.
Rape due to involuntary medication is not fun. It is not funny. I am speaking from experience. The fact that this episode managed to so accurately depict several of the worst and most horrific aspects of my rape (I'm fortunate enough to only really freak out when encountered by a single scenario: memory loss due to involuntary medication. They FOUND IT! CONGRATS!) leads me to believe the writers might be familiar with drugged date rape. Their obvious lack of comprehension for what it feels like to be the victim of it leads me to believe that they must know it from the other side.
And to top it off, they had the victim try to reassure his "loser" attacker (a formerly beloved avatar for our fandom, which I suspect probably just got a LOT SMALLER) that she wasn't a bad person. WRONG. And then they had the victim apologize to his brother for things he said while involuntarily medicated! THIS IS EVIL AND WRONG. I am not even going to get into the offensive gay and misogynist stereotypes that this episode depicted, because if you can't see them from a mile away, you're not paying attention.
I am, frankly, shaken and hurt after watching the depiction of Sam's memory loss as a result of being drugged into submitting to non-consexual sex. What was implied to be multiple instances of rape. He was strangely unaffected by his experience with repeated drugged-rape at the end of the episode. It was laughed off. I'm not laughing. I'm thinking about the time I spent being interviewed by police for a police report that produced no arrests or prosecution; of having my bruises and injuries photographed by doctors I didn't know; of the years of therapy that it took before I accepted that what happened to me wasn't my own fault.
Please forward this website to the production staff of this episode:
Sexual assault does not become funny or acceptable because it happens to a male character either. News out of Penn State this week should make this fact painfully clear.
I am not amused. And I am not alone. And I don't know if I can watch this show any more. This hurt me.
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